Kaash mera dil "soch" pata..

April 9th : 12 something PM.

It was the last working day of the week and there was not even a zilch of inspiration in Dee to do some fertile work.. so there she was, sitting at her office system randomly reviewing the product requirement docs and chatting on-line with her friends simultaneously when one of the random chats suddenly started getting surprisingly interesting..

Scene I : MJ is on the other side of this wired conversation almost in the same state of mind as Dee.
Disclaimer : This chat has been slightly edited solely to protect the non-public discussions before and after the excerpt. The views and ideas of both the parties are.. err.. un-tampered.

MJ: resign kar diya?
did you resign?
Dee: nai nai.. subh subh bol.. :P
no-no.. don't talk of such ill..
MJ: arrey padhne ni jaana kya ?
so you don't wanna go study?
Dee: mere MS ka toh final hai yaar.. saare formalities complete kar rahi ab bas.. :(
my MS plans are almost final.. I'm just trying to complete all the formalities..
MJ: hmm.. y this rondu smiley?
what makes you sad
Dee: pata nai nayi life kaisi hogi.. koi bhi nai hoga wahan toh.. :(:(
I don't know how the fresh beginning would be.. There's no-one whom i know ..over there
MJ: sahi mein yaar .. rat race rote the pehle.. aaj hum bhi wohi ban ke reh gaye hain
seriously.. we used to crib of the rat-race.. and we landed up becoming rats in the race
Dee: evn if u win d race u remain a rat.. :(
MJ: sad but true
Dee: haan.. yeh saari apni dimaakh ki feelings hoti hai..dil wali nai.. :| aajkal humlog sirf dimag se feel karne lage hai.. :( mujhe aisa lagne laga hai ki its all in my brain.. mai jab chahun khush feel kar sakti hun.. :) nd jab chahun dukhi.. :(
somehow our brain has started doing the 'feeling' bit and not out hearts.. i think my brain orders me to be happy when it wants :) and sad when it wants to. :(
MJ: yes.. very true
Dee: dil pata nai kya kar raha.. :(
no idea what my hearts' doing
MJ: dil ki pooch ke chalne ki himat ni hum mein.. isliye.. safe option
we don't have the courage to listen to our hearts anymore.. maybe.. so we wanna tread on a safe path..
Dee: hmm..

Why is it, that we (read i.. everywhere) can no longer listen to our hearts desires?

Why is it, that we think twice or maybe more to respond to what out heart wants to do?

Why is it, that we have become only 'technical robots' sans all emotions keen to work only for a glorious future?

Why do i, start missing people-very-close once every hour and still don't find the time to call them at lest once a day?

Why is it, that when my heart feels at home here, my brain tells me that i need to go far-far-away to the unknown..

But then, even before Dee and MJ can find answers to any of the above.. humans as they are they digress to more materialistic pleasures.. :)

Dee: mai iss par blog post karu..?? with all due privacy for u.. :)
shall i write a blog post on this ?? with all due privacy to you..
MJ: u knw what.. i wanna do the same.. :) mera to man hai conversation hi utha ke chep daloon
you know what.. i wanna do the same.. in fact i want to copy-paste this conversation..
Dee: hehe.. daal de..
hehe.. do that..
MJ: k..


### P.S. : Added much-much-much later...
People do check out my dear friend MJ's version of the conversation.. or rather a very interesting interpretation ... :)


Kya aapka dil "soch" paata hai...?!!
- Dee

Never Imitate

P.S. Please click on the pictures for a better view..

I was as usual whiling away my time in office today reading blog-posts.. checking mails.. when to my surprise I saw i had a mail in Hindi on my official mail-id..!! Geez :/
Now this was neither a once-in-a-lifetime-spectacle nor something that would make a 24-year-old start jumping in office.. But there was something about it that told me in my head.. "Dee lets try it.." :)
Ordinarily there would have been absolutely no issues trying anything like this at work and seeing no harm i cool-ly clicked on "settings".. "languages" and changed it to Hindi.. it probably took some 2 mins to change to the new settings and i had a brand new Gmail-in-Hindi.. :D







My original Gmail version..











My Gmail version after all the tactics i tried.. :D









I had enough of it and wanted my good old English UK version back again.. So after interpreting all the Hindi i tried to revert back..




But sadly my Gmail wouldn't budge.. :(

























And since then i have managed to kill one full-jobless-day-on-job learning Hindi terms and lingo's for their English counterparts.. :)

-Dee

my science test

yipee !!! i passed my science test today... :D

Filling in the Blanks....

Much of my life in the past week has been pretty much the same..... eat, sleep, get ol, chat, scrap, read blog, sleep, get ol, chat, sleep, get ol...
...... x x x x x x x............... x x x x x x x x x x x x x x ............... x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x ......x x x x x x x x x x x x x x ....................x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x .................

The routine mail-check that i used to do anticipating some information regarding my DoJ has also come to an abrupt end... Most of the ppl who used to form an integral part of my chat-n-scrap group hav strted earning in 5 digits while m still praying for d 5 o' clock rains..

Now m feeling d need to end this this here itslf.. else m sure like Airtel even Blogger will ask me to discontinue using their service....
in between...i came across this really nice post, i cud really identify with.... http://sayesha.blogspot.com/2005/09/mera-kuchh-saamaan.html

P.S. ... i seriously hav nothing nu to do... Tried memorising 7 wrds/day in the HFL... googled NGO's working for the GC... played d missd-call-missd-call game ( to which some friends actually calld bak... ;) ).... nd now i think ill revert to " learning-to-cook " d " aloo-gobbi ".....

Act II : Scene III

Loads of free time gives you a nice opportunity to sit nd ponder over life n in the end gain loads of weight.. somebdy hd actually posed me a direct question... "poore time ghar baithe baithe kitna weight gain kar li ab tak??.."

Actually speaking, since the time i hav returned from BIT M, i hav been trying my hands at various things(to the likes of kneading flour nd making milk shake too).... but somehow nothing seems to come handy when you want to 'kill time' n that too loads of it at one go.... Suddenly even d Goddess of Sleep who always used to bestow me wit her blessings nd good will during all-nd-every-possible exam, too has been playing hide nd seek...

My HDD is full up to d brim with movies... so much so that each time i try dwnlding a new song from d WWW it gives me a low-disk-space warning... but i, who holds records of watching movies back-2-back in theatres can't sit thru fifteen mins at a stretch ny longer... On telly it's just Himesh nd his red/white/black caps... no luck there too... Tried scrapping nd crapping in other peoples scrapbooks(read : orkut) in english/hindi/hinglish/french/german/arabic but even that has lost its 'charm' (if there was ny in first case)....

And although some ignorant female out somewhere would take pride in announcing " I have access to the WWW 24 7 365..." i cross my heart nd admit this connection has been a pain-you-know-where since it arrived... it takes me precisely 3.77 mins to verify my name nd passwrd each time i log into orkut although i believe i have 'Remember my name nd passwrd on this computer' for like a zillion times now... An illustration for those who can't exactly imagine what 115.2 Kbps connectivity nd 4.68 kb/sec download speed is like it took me 12:03 pm to 12:39 pm to dwnld 'ye mera deewanapan hai.mp3--The Namesake' a 8.26 mb song that will take approx. 4 mins to play in entirety...Alas!!!!

## Side note 1: If you are plannin to gt an internet connection...Wait till some service provider falls for your got-nothing-to-do-too-hot-to-play-nd-still-jobless story nd agrees to set up "d Broadband" at your place... friendly advice----"don't go in for a GPRS".....

Now that you've read upto here and have clearly figure out that i have practically nothing(nd these nothings can b real murderous at times) to do, nd you must have also inferred why you are getting to read this blog... ;)..

And for all those who are still racking their brains over why this post is called Act II: Scene III...even i m clueless..