April 9, 2009

Kaash mera dil "soch" pata..

April 9th : 12 something PM.

It was the last working day of the week and there was not even a zilch of inspiration in Dee to do some fertile work.. so there she was, sitting at her office system randomly reviewing the product requirement docs and chatting on-line with her friends simultaneously when one of the random chats suddenly started getting surprisingly interesting..

Scene I : MJ is on the other side of this wired conversation almost in the same state of mind as Dee.
Disclaimer : This chat has been slightly edited solely to protect the non-public discussions before and after the excerpt. The views and ideas of both the parties are.. err.. un-tampered.

MJ: resign kar diya?
did you resign?

Dee: nai nai.. subh subh bol.. :P
no-no.. don't talk of such ill..

MJ: arrey padhne ni jaana kya ?
so you don't wanna go study?
Dee: mere MS ka toh final hai yaar.. saare formalities complete kar rahi ab bas.. :(
my MS plans are almost final.. I'm just trying to complete all the formalities..
MJ: hmm.. y this rondu smiley?
what makes you sad
Dee: pata nai nayi life kaisi hogi.. koi bhi nai hoga wahan toh.. :(:(
I don't know how the fresh beginning would be.. There's no-one whom i know ..over there
MJ: sahi mein yaar .. rat race rote the pehle.. aaj hum bhi wohi ban ke reh gaye hain
seriously.. we used to crib of the rat-race.. and we landed up becoming rats in the race
Dee: evn if u win d race u remain a rat.. :(
MJ: sad but true
Dee: haan.. yeh saari apni dimaakh ki feelings hoti hai..dil wali nai.. :| aajkal humlog sirf dimag se feel karne lage hai.. :( mujhe aisa lagne laga hai ki its all in my brain.. mai jab chahun khush feel kar sakti hun.. :) nd jab chahun dukhi.. :(
somehow our brain has started doing the 'feeling' bit and not out hearts.. i think my brain orders me to be happy when it wants :) and sad when it wants to. :(
MJ: yes.. very true
Dee: dil pata nai kya kar raha.. :(
no idea what my hearts' doing
MJ: dil ki pooch ke chalne ki himat ni hum mein.. isliye.. safe option
we don't have the courage to listen to our hearts anymore.. maybe.. so we wanna tread on a safe path..
Dee: hmm..

Why is it, that we (read i.. everywhere) can no longer listen to our hearts desires?

Why is it, that we think twice or maybe more to respond to what out heart wants to do?

Why is it, that we have become only 'technical robots' sans all emotions keen to work only for a glorious future?

Why do i, start missing people-very-close once every hour and still don't find the time to call them at lest once a day?

Why is it, that when my heart feels at home here, my brain tells me that i need to go far-far-away to the unknown..

But then, even before Dee and MJ can find answers to any of the above.. humans as they are they digress to more materialistic pleasures.. :)

Dee: mai iss par blog post karu..?? with all due privacy for u.. :)
shall i write a blog post on this ?? with all due privacy to you..
MJ: u knw what.. i wanna do the same.. :) mera to man hai conversation hi utha ke chep daloon
you know what.. i wanna do the same.. in fact i want to copy-paste this conversation..
Dee: hehe.. daal de..
hehe.. do that..
MJ: k..


### P.S. : Added much-much-much later...
People do check out my dear friend MJ's version of the conversation.. or rather a very interesting interpretation ... :)


Kya aapka dil "soch" paata hai...?!!
- Dee


7 comments:

MJ said...

is dil ko sochne nahin diya jaata :)..
nice interpretation dear ..
leave ur MS nd stuff and lets start publishing some real life drama for avid readers

ONE said...

wat can i say..
my heart can only feel..
and whatever i feel - i just go with it..

dee said...

@ MJ.. lets do it babes..!! :D but aisa na ho ki hum dono bas ek doosre ka drama padhte reh jaye.. :(

@ ONE.. u kno u r d luckiest.. :) and yet m :( coz m not.. :(

ag said...

hey did u realize u already started DOING that.. no not kidding.. see u already started following ur heart :) u posted this post n conversation hi chep daali yahan coz ur heart said so.. r not u going for ms coz ur heart saying that? what i feel is ki its true that half of the time we fear of following our heart n give up but trust me on this, rest half of the times we do follow our heart but that "uncertainty" element produces insecurity n hence fear n makes us think that we dont wanna follow that path n doing so for others sake whn actually thats not the case....
i guess thoda (may read 'bahut') complicated ho gya hai.. koi na, next time ol mile to samjha dungi :P

adios amigos
et bonne chance pour votre vie ahead :)tc

dee said...

@ ag.. i totally relate to the "uncertainty" leads to "fear" thing.. very true.. maybe this is the only reason why we make thoughtful-Decisions and not follow our random-Desires..

nice thought.. :)

Anonymous said...

agar ye dil "soch" paata..
to isme or hamare upar wale maale me kya hi farak reh jaata :P :P

isliye isse aisa koi kaam nahi diya gaya :)

baki v always say ki "follow ur heart" ;)
well, its d way life is...

waise bhi chuhon ka chutka sa dil :P :P thak jayega soch ke :P :P

Musings!!!! said...

i dont know yaar........mera dil shayad hamesha confused rehta hai..thats y brain has to do all that thing.....\
but seriously...i agree with u..even i have these feelings sometimes.....wat m i doing, living in bombay with none of the ppl i love arnd me...y dont i just leave all this and do wat my heart desires....bas yahi tak soch paati hoon....uske aage sochne par insecurity aa jati hai nd i remain in my cocconed world, afraid to listen to my heart...and follow it